Inadequacy and guilt

My mom has an iPad, while I have an Android and I don't understand how an iPad works, and I don't know how to help her when she ask me to fix some bugs. 

Alberto would have known how to fix the bugs, but unfortunately is not here. I feel so inadequate because I'm not smart enough, I'm not smart as Alberto was. 

And I also feel guilty about not being as smart as Alberto was. Not just because I can't help my mum with her iPad, but also, and most importantly, because I'm letting Alberto down - he would have not been proud of me today. 

Depression, as usual

Today is the seventh day that the weather has temperatures above 26°C, ideal for me.

But today I'm so depressed that I have no will to do the many things I have to do.

I know I will feel guilty tomorrow, for not having exploided today's good weather, but... alas, I don't have the strenght, nor physical nor mental, to force myself out of bed.

So... I'll lay dawn all day and let the rest be gone.

After all... who cares?