I had started to write for this blog because I wanted to tell you something before the second year I spent alone was over. I wanted to describe my feelings... but I realised that nothing has truly changed since last year.
If you read what I've written one year ago you'll know what I'm feeling now.
I just have a few addition to make to that.
First of all a huge thank you to those friends who are helping me. Not only the ones who are there with their words or with a pat on my back when I need one. I mean those friends who are actually sending me money each month to pay the bills. Without them I would literally be starving in a cold house.
I would because the person described in this article and who has cheated the people talking in this TV programme... had cheated Alberto and me since 2007 (possibly earlier). That's why I am involved in a trial that will (I hope) end with the total restoration of my fiscal position... but this will happen in many years time. During the first hearing in November the only thing that's been decided was the date of the second hearing, in May! In the meantime I have to repay everything to Equitalia.
The "Ammiragliato Cloud" project has not helped me much. Just a few of those items had been sold. But sooner or later I will learn how to organise a permanent garage sale. A lifetime ago friends came to San Michele to celebrate Alberto's birthday, now I hope people will come to take care of Alberto's things that I have to sell.
My only true hope came about because of Doctor Who! I didn't want to be involved in the supervision of the TV series Italian dubbing but when I was involved as a paid professional, I had to change my mind and do it. I translated the new Capaldi series willingly, don't misunderstand me, but doing it alone (meaning... without Alberto) has been really hard.
Despite that I welcomed the opportunity because it's been the first job I landed in many many months. It's not a steady job (in this very moment I'm again doing absolutely nothing!) but it's a chance. Much better than all those opportunities I read in my constant search for jobs - I think I sent abount 3000 CVs in Italy and abroad so far... to no avail.
Last but not least I want to mention the only thing (beside having friends) who is helping me - the Futura mission of Samantha Cristoforetti! It's hard to enjoy her wonderful log entries knowing that Alberto is not here with me, but I know he would have been so proud! So very proud!
I hope you'll live happy end-of-year holidays. Please don't call me or wish me the same - the only thing you could wish me is for these days to pass as fast as they can!
